Wednesday, December 31, 2014

DESCOVRIR Perfume

Accidentally knocked this down ... Image from Clinique website
As I was hurrying to leave on Sunday afternoon, I opened my cabinet and shoved a hanky back.

Closing the cabinet, I arranged the hem of a dress hanging there when it knocked down my perfume –almost half full bottle of it.

It’s an expensive bottle – well, expensive for me as I seldom buy perfume at such amount.

And it could still last until March next year, I said to myself.

Dismayed and cursing, instead of cleaning the broken pieces and wiping the tiled floor right away, I sat down at the edge of my bed – and a dark cloud hovered over my head.

Transfixed at the broken bottle of perfume and the scent enveloping my room, all the ill happenings this year and years ago flashed before my eyes – all challenges, frustrations, trials – all broke me piece by piece that there were times I felt I no longer exist.

But the scent wafting in my room was pleasing, inviting.

Holding my tears – whether it was because our tiled floor enjoyed my perfume instead of me wearing it or the ill happenings of this year and past pains me still, I did not know anymore.

After almost an hour, I swept the floor and made sure no tiny pieces of broken glass was left.

I turned the electric fan on and let the perfume dry.

And left the house in a gloomy state.

When I returned hours after, the scent was still there, pleasing, inviting, calming.

Two days after, my room still smells of the perfume.

It made me conclude that no matter how broken I am, there is still this pleasing, inviting, calming sense in me.

After all, I survived and still surviving all these challenges, frustrations, trials.

Thoughts of a better tomorrow is pleasing, inviting, and calming me in these times of difficulties.

Like that perfume still wafting in my room, there is still the hope of bright future enveloping me to continue, to move forward, no matter how broken I have become.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

DESCOVRIR Time

Slow moving .... My Breakfast at Tiffany's watch necklace from EGG [exciting gifts + goodies]

Two days before Christmas, and yet, eight more days before 2014 ends.

I wrote about how difficult this year is proving --- and until the very end, it is testing me.

I am trying to enjoy the week-long holiday break (because it is me on a New Year's week duty), but not working makes me more prone to thinking how this year have ran so far.

If only I can hurry time.

Erase 2014 from my history.

Make it as if it never happened.

If only ....

Must find the good in this. Must count my blessings.

Trying ....




*Photo by me, is mine, in case you see it elsewhere.

Wednesday, December 03, 2014

DESCOVRIR White Butterfly

Image from http://www.wallpaper2020.com/ 
While sipping my coffee and having my purple yam and cheese swirl slice of bread, sitting on our front door, a tiny white butterfly was, seemingly, happily fluttering, flirting with our pots of flowers and oregano.

From afar, it look like dotted or streaked.

Many superstitions across the world are associated when seeing a white butterfly.

It could be about an upcoming good streak of luck or a reminder about a departed loved one.

The variations are a lot.


I am not a superstitious person, but as I was reminded of a blog post of Paulo Coelho, thus I like to believe that butterfly I saw this morning is a bearer of good fortune.

That it is a sign, that sooner, or soonest, I will find solution to all my worries.






Tuesday, December 02, 2014

DESCOVRIR Worry

MR. WORRY PERSONIFIED. Mr. Worry (character created by Roger Hargreaves) is always worrying about himself, and everyone else --- like me lately. But I worry more about the near- and long-term future. Image from http://mrmen.com/characters/mr-worry/index.html.
My Tuesday did not end very well.

I again stumbled --- about how this year is being a difficult one.

And I fell asleep worrying what the future would bring.

I am still in a precarious state --- and the situation will have a ripple effect on what I will not be able to provide.

I have always been a provider and a giver. Very rare I become a receiver.

The provider and giver role is very tiring, especially when you are at your rock bottom.

Every single time I am at my lowest, I always encounter this:

Matthew 6:25-34 (From the New American Standard Bible)

25 “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32 For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

However, I am not finding solace in these words.

And again, I do not understand why this is happening to me.

Perhaps, tomorrow, I might have a better disposition ....

Perhaps ....

Monday, December 01, 2014

DESCOVRIR Start

This is not Christmas the Kitten (I felt I was invading the kitten's recovery if I snapped a picture of it), but the kitten almost looks like this. Photo from http://thecatnetwork.org/

While this is the last month of the year, this is a new month since I turned a year older weeks ago.

A month of fresh start. Looking forward to be consistent about this effort.

I am not happy. But I am content for now.

And I like to infuse doable "lifehacks" for my own well-being.

I started today.

Sunshine is good to start the day. So I finished my brekkie coffee while sitting outside our front door. It was rainy this morning but the morning glow with a touch of cool, December breeze was a good start.

Toward the afternoon, it went off tangent. My mom got into an altercation with the neighbor's house help --- something to do with the house help sweeping off the street and dumping the dried leaves and plastics near our gate.

What caught me though was the kitten that was freezing cold, breathing laboredly because that house help, according to my mom, hosed down the neighbor's plant box. Whether she did not know that a kitten was there, I had no idea (but mom said she knew, or my mom said that because she was upset with that house help).

The whole afternoon, after each article I edited, I stepped out and checked on the kitten. Through a plastic straw, I wet its lips with milk. Its noisy meow was an assurance for me that it is still alive --- and fighting. I kept talking to the kitten, blowing it dry, and started calling it "Christmas."

Good thing that it got warmer and eventually, the kitten got itself dry. And it kept purring and meowing every time I try to have it sip milk.

When I left earlier tonight, it was no longer in the plant box --- my mom said the old lady  neighbor is fond of animals --- so I am hopeful that Christmas is now in good hands.

As for that house help, I could not help but gave her a sharp look, she saw me nursing the kitten but she was unmindful or it did occur to her that because of her the kitten was freezing for hours.

Anyhow, I hoped I was able to help that kitten --- as I am scared to hold the kitten so I was nursing it through a straw.

Overall, good start to my December --- with TV bonding earlier with mom as we finished a small tub of Chef Tony's mochaccino popcorn.

Then now, while waiting for an article to edit, I am blogging today's blessing --- to be of help to others, humans and kittens alike.

I hope that kitten, Christmas, is off to a good start, as I attempt to have mine.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

DESCOVRIR Waves and Rocks



Another year is closing for me --- and it has been a very difficult one. Tops.

There are days that I wonder why am I here?

Why I made such decisions?

Why my efforts resulting in nothing?

But most days, I just let things be as they are. No matter how bad they could be.

I accomplish as much as I could in a day. And the next day, it would be the same cycle.

Such lefts me beaten, tired. But I have to continue.

I remember the video I took in Saud Beach, Pagudpud in early April this year.

It makes me think: Am I a wave or a rock? 

Am I a rock that is trying to withstand the rushing water?

Or am I like water slowly yet steadily crushing the rocks that are weighing me down now?

In any case, I do not know who I am at the moment. What I can do. What am I capable of.

Or I do not know what should I feel. Or should I still feel at all.

I am simply, trying to stay afloat ....








*The video is mine in case you see it elsewhere.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

DESCOVRIR Scarlett O'Hara

It was a 4-hour long, classic 1940 movie.

And the 1936 novel from where the movie was based ran 1037 pages in its first edition.

But Gone with the Wind is one of my favorite films.

I have seen it several times already and the lines said by key characters there are simply memorable --- and if you are like me that attributes a line from a movie or book, this film is peppered with all the zingers applicable for any stage in one's life. (I write about the film because I still have to read the novel, my bad!)

Of course, Rhett Butler (played by Clark Gable) is the "ideal" man for his persistence in wooing Scarlett O'Hara (portrayed by Vivian Leigh). But, eventually after the trials they endured from their cat-and-mouse like romance to their tragic marriage, Rhett gave up, leaving Scarlett running down from the grand staircase and him uttering one of movie history's most memorable lines:  

"Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."

And, yes, most days lately, I don't give a damn.

But then, there's Scarlett. The character you will love to hate and hate to love.

Truly beautiful on the outside, but hardened by life following the Civil War. Her responsibility to those she loves made Scarlett an unscrupulous businesswoman, married for convenience, and pursued Ashley Wilkes even if he was in love and married to his cousin, Melanie Hamilton.

How Margaret Mitchell portrayed Scarlett in the novel and how Leigh gave life to one of the most iconic female leads in film history was truly remarkable that time.

The transformation Scarlett underwent --- from overcoming the effects of the war, becoming the talk of the town, to a wife and a mother, and belatedly realizing that she already loves Rhett is filled with lessons, with historical events serving as background.

Her character's strength somehow reminds me to keep going and never give up no matter how the going gets rough. Easier said that done, but one has to try, so I'm trying.

If you are watching Gone with the Wind and you are going through a challenge or a transformation in your life, here are the 6 best zingers delivered by Scarlett. The first two quotable quotes from the film applies to me somehow:

"As God is my witness, as God is my witness they're not going to lick me. I'm going to live through this and when it's all over, I'll never be hungry again. No, nor any of my folk. If I have to lie, steal, cheat or kill. As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again." (Minus the lie, steal, cheat or kill part for me.)

"I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow." (Stings. I remember Scarlett said this when Rhett was already gone, out in the fog.)

[With her mouth full] "Why does a girl have to be so silly to catch a husband?"

[Last lines] "Tara! Home. I'll go home. And I'll think of some way to get him back. After all ... tomorrow is another day."

[Upon being widowed] "My life is over. Nothing will ever happen to me anymore." 

[To Ashley] "Dreams, dreams always dreams with you, never common sense." 

They are yes, lines from the movie, but art imitates life --- sometimes. And sometimes zingers like these knock some sense to our thick skulls,  and we go on, continue, and live.

(Lines from IMDb)

Monday, September 01, 2014

Descovrir Never Give Up

The cross I had to carry early this year has not been lifted yet.

And now it only became heavier.

I am agitated. confused. Dazed. Down. Listless.
 
But I am trying to carry the cross no matter how heavy it has become.

And of all places, this receipt with this Post-it encouraging message was totally unexpected.

The cashier (name printed here) or the barista at CBTL Ortigas Park must have seen through what I have been going through (I came from two important meetings that day and really tired and hungry and I still have to work after), thus these encouraging words:

This 5 pm lunch on August 19 came with this Post-it inspirational note: NEVER GIVE UP!

Bless them for boosting my spirits that day.

The days are uncertain. I am scared. Scarred. Battered.

But the only way to get to where I need to is to NEVER GIVE UP.

I have to remind myself of such three words whenever bleakness envelopes me.

NEVER GIVE UP, Descovrir. 

NEVER GIVE UP.



*Photo by me, is mine, in case you see it elsewhere.


Sunday, June 01, 2014

DESCOVRIR Midyear

Voila! June is here. We are already in the half of 2014.

How was your first half?

Surely there are the highlights and the lowlights.

I have my share of both, though the lowlights outshine the highlights. But my highlights matter more.

My highlights included:

Yours truly with Mitch Albom, February 2014

Bucket list:
Humbled. In February, I had my less than 15-minute of fame with the American inspirational author Mitch Albom. Almost 12 hours after and no. 1570 to have my picture with him and book, The First Phone Call from Heaven, signed by him---I endured it all together with enthusiastic fans (thousands!!! That Glorietta malls and National Bookstore logistics personnel could not handle all the fans and had to cut the over long line before the program start); that my friends whom I am supposed to meet that day, endured waiting for my turn as well (and they too were amazed how Albom was treating his fans---selfies galore!!!) that we had our dinner almost 11 p.m.

His visit here was also an extension of his charity work, helping the supertyphoon Haiyan survivors, even asking pledges from fellow celebrity authors to donate their works to stock the proposed rebuilding of libraries in the supertyphoon-stricken areas. The "fan" experience was really humbling.

Professional development:
Coached and mentored on Storytelling by a topnotch learning and development director (who used to work with Steven Spielberg), making me the only employee from the Philippine office of that company to (actively) participate in that workshop.

Returning to a media job. Albeit temporarily as agreed with my hiring editor. I signed my part-time, consultancy contract for Desk Editor for the Business section of a pioneering news organization in the country. I had my baptism of fire earlier today and I am relearning my way back into newsroom pressure.

Sharing expertise and knowledge. I had an opportunity to lead a 1-hour demo training on Technical Writing for government bank leaders and managers (though I have not heard again from the training agency I was in touch with). Also, after years, I again taught Newswriting, this time, to students of Maria Concepcion Cruz High School in Pateros. The opportunity / outreach was made possible by The Varsitarian where I was an alumna. I really hope that the children learned a thing or two from the half-day training. I am thankful for their patience and enthusiasm despite the inconvenience bought about by the location, technology, and weather.

Personal development:
Relearning leadership. Prior to my current part-time job, I was going through all the leadership materials I have from the trainings my former company sent me. I am not done yet so I am making time to relearn them again as aligned with my aspiration to return or assume a senior leadership / managerial role.

 
My stash (Why Men Love Bitches is not mine though). A couple of titles have been added already, plus there are more in my bookshelf and bed side table .... More time to read please!

Loving reading. Yes, I have a backlog of books, ebooks, and magazines that since my redundancy, I got more time to read. I am mostly devouring now career / leadership / management books, with self-help and fiction on the side. 

Travel:
I was here! At Pinto Art Museum, January 2014

Traveled with a dear friend, getting lost in Antipolo finding Pinto Art Museum which we both liked, and how appreciative he was that I bought him to such a place. He like it so much that he was intending to bring there his visiting colleagues. I like to visit again soonest, a more proper tour, so I can document the exquisite works curated there.

Sunburned at Ilocos Norte. Pagudpud, March - April 2014

Explored Ilocos Norte. From my stay in Saud Beach, Pagudpud, to day tour of the town and adjoining towns Bangui (windmills and the scorching sand that burnt my feet and Ipanema flip flops!) and Burgos; then Laoag, Paoay, Batac---it was an experience, made more pleasant by the locals I met and guided my solo tour. I love the museums (Museo Ilocos Norte, Malacañang of the North, the Marcos Museum and Mausoleum); the Augustinian churches (Paoay Church specifically), the food (Pinakbet and Dinuguan pizza from Cafe Herencia in Paoay; the Empanada Surprise from Johnny Moon Cafe). Though my return flight via Philippine Airlines was delayed for almost four hours, the trip was worth it.

Social life:
Loving my friends---more. I appreciate how I consider my closest friends showered me with support and understood me during the height of my career slump. I always love our catch ups over dinner and coffee. And I look forward to seeing more of them for the rest of the year, perhaps we all travel together or discover new places to hang out with.

Welcoming new colleagues, mentors, and friends. Tops. As I expressed in my previous post, I am truly thankful to you all.

= = = = =
There goes my midyear review. As I mentioned, it was not all highlights but still, I had my highlights.

I am claiming that the rest of 2014 will have more highlights and I am ending it with a positive, loud bang.

Such will be made possible by all those dear ones and those will I meet.

Are you looking forward to the next half?


*Photos by me, are mine, in case you see them elsewhere.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

DESCOVRIR Simon of Cyrene

"Simon the Cyrenian Compelled to Carry the Cross with Jesus" by James Jacques Tissot (French painter and illustrator, 1836-1902), from Joyful Heart Renewal Ministries

It was this year's Visita Iglesia that I was reminded of the Simons of Cyrene who have helped and helping me in these difficult times.

It will be a month tomorrow since my last day from my previous company. The day I was informed of the redundancy (due to budget cuts as the project ended and no project available for me to work on, to sum up the matters), I sent messages to former teammates and colleagues from that same company; to close friends and dear mentors; to those new people, yet have already became influential as I chart my career path.

They all gave words of comfort. Even my former client based overseas and whom I only had virtual communication for almost two years I was co-managing the project, was unnecessarily sounding apologetic that this had happened, repeatedly assured me that my contribution to the project was truly invaluable, and offered herself as a reference as I pursue other roles within the company (I had that option; but the reality is hiring rates internally were not exactly promising), or pursue a career elsewhere.

Some of these people referred me to those whom should I get in touch with for possible job vacancies.

Some offered help in ways I never imagined --- you all know who you are, thank you! A former teammate also sent a message to a hiring manager of a job she was applying for and endorsed me to be considered also for a role and such move got me an interview with the recruiter. 

Others previously raised opportunities for me; and this time while waiting for that "full-time" opportunity, their offers are possible now.

Such generosity of those people who helped me, and still are helping me, are beyond words.

Most especially, I am truly grateful to those people whom I never expected to come to my aid --- like a former colleague whom after almost a decade of no contact, suddenly popped up and offered me an opportunity.

Another person offered help to me way back --- and such help was really timely and unexpected because I never thought he would do such to someone he hardly knew.

As some of them said, I am deserving of such help. They also understand that I can not --- and should not settle for the first opportunity that come my way because they know that I am at this point where I am equipped to lead and manage and more --- thus the pursuit for such kind of opportunities.

And as we were completing the Stations of the Cross on our Maundy Thursday Visita Iglesia, and had a moment to reflect at each station, there on the seventh station was Simon of Cyrene who helped Jesus Christ carry the cross, I prayed for these people who are believing, trusting me by helping me carry my cross.

I feel at times though that I am shortchanging these Simons of Cyrene for there were days --- or times in any given day --- that I felt truly down; truly hopeless; restless and impatient for that elusive opportunity to come my way, despite what I believe my conscientious attempts.

But I am reminded of these Simons of Cyrene who are believing, trusting in me.

They too have their own crosses to bear, but yet, they are choosing to bet on me.

I am especially worried now for the days ahead --- the kind that gives back pains, migraine, upset stomach --- the works.

But I also am reminding myself that I need to productively wait.

I need to patiently wait that there is one opportunity (out of the many that I have already applied for) that is meant for me.

And that I must be the Simon of Cyrene myself.

I read the other day Pope Francis' advice to pray, and pray regardless where we are. I am doing more and more of that.

Only through prayer I am comforted these days (plus reading and writing) then the Simons of Cyrene showed up. 

I have lots of questions now. If I am already incapable of generating answers, I pray that I will be helped to help myself.

That I never give up on me because I was sent these Simons of Cyrene to help carry my cross.

And I know many Simons of Cyrene are on their way to help lighten the burden.

Thank you, Simons of Cyrene.

I pray for you and yours and I hope that, even if not to you, I will be able to repay you, to become Simon of Cyrene myself and help others like how you are all boosting me now.

Friday, February 14, 2014

DESCOVRIR "Let it go"

The best Valentine's Day you can have is when you can say, "I'm letting go."

It has been almost three years since my engagement was called off and as I was writing here in Descovrir, I spent the first year and a half of it trying to work things out. It was only last year that I started to be more open to other possibilities, going out and making friends with the opposite sex from the world over.

Though there are still those very, very, very rare occasions that a flash of what happened interrupts me.

The marked improvement is that I no longer blame myself for what happened.
I no longer wallow in self-pity.
That I know fully I did everything I could.
That I gave it my all.
That it is me who has loved the most --- and still had (has) a lot to give.
That no matter how many times I was maligned, hurt, attacked, I'm still standing, weathering the aftermaths of that storm.

I'm further strengthened by the fact that it happened because there are better things waiting for me. That despite everything, I'm here --- a stronger, better version of me, ready to face anything.

Today's Friday + payday + Valentine's Day (who's still stuck in traffic)? I smiled probably a lot of times today when I saw those red, heart shaped balloons; those bouquets of flowers; those boxes of chocolates and cakes and other sweet nothings. Those couples at their sweetest displays of affection today. I didn't get any of those gifts (well I received, albeit virtually, from friends all over --- the virtual flowers saved me from allergic rhinitis and the virtual chocolates meant less calories gained). Despite such, I'm thankful I "survived" the day (actually the second straight hectic work week), beating multiple deadlines earlier and sharing with my team a dozen of Krispy Kreme's Valentine doughnuts (sugar rush needed while writing!)

I'm single and I'm thankful that there's Valentine's Day --- and the rest of the year and beyond --- to be surrounded with many people in love, courting love, and loving life.

Despite my past, I still believe in love. I do (being a hopeless romantic that I am!) Whether love will find me or not, what matters is I let go of the situation, of people that no longer have room in my life.

That I now have this huge space to fill with love (and I'm dead set to achieve more success this year), and the better me is surely not a relationship expert, but is more aware that to love is to love yourself first, and the rest will fall into its place.

This is the soundtrack of my first quarter 2014 (so far, but this really is my last song syndrome these days). I have not seen Disney's Frozen yet, but the song is simply powerful and carries hopefulness that we all need. I'm sure many has this as their anthem, too.

Let it go. Let the love in. But for now, sing along.

Monday, January 20, 2014

DESCOVRIR "Big Picture"

Poster generated from http://sd.keepcalm-o-matic.co.uk/i/keep-calm-and-see-the-big-picture-14.png

Then it hit me.

While this is the first lowlight of my 2014, this was a result of my actions or lack of during the previous year.

I am not happy about it.

But so be it.

I am moving forward.

I am channeling my energy to improve myself further—as a person, as an individual contributor, as a team player, as a collaborator.

I am addressing also areas of concern involving my co-contributors, fellow team players, co-collaborators—hopefully, they will also be pro-active and strive to improve themselves.

I am going to live with it for the whole 2014 as what happened limited my options for the year.

But I am carrying on and I am looking at it at the big picture.

I am not the only one who is undergoing through this major letdown.

I am not the only one affected or severely impacted of this or similar situation.

Moving forward is the best move.

Freeing one’s self from anger and resentment is the ideal thing to do.

Thank you to my dear friends who soundly advised me and offered prayers for me as I carry on.


P.S. This is a cryptic post—I tried it to be as cryptic as possible. But I am sure many can relate. So, carry on. Move forward. Be free.

Wednesday, January 08, 2014

DESCOVRIR Systems

It is the same. But, not really.

Surely, my route to work is the same.

My office morning habit is the same --- check emails, make coffee, tackle the ugliest task down to the easiest deliverable. Then I go home via the same route. I pass by the same floor, ride the same escalator, exit the same door of the mall to the terminal where I get my ride home.

That is usually the case except when I have  to stay late at work, or I have a meeting after work, or there would be a dinner or coffee invite, or spend some after-work hours with good old friends.

But as I shared here, my 2014 --- and beyond --- is all about being free.

Thus to achieve my intentions, I invigorated my routine with systems.

Yes, I committed myself to processes than tying myself to goals, that when not achieved, I would feel a complete failure.

What's the difference? Travel photographer James Clear, espouses that having a system is what matters and that committing to a process is what makes the difference.

Scott Adams, creator of my favorite comic strip Dilbert, uses the post-holiday weight loss goal that most of us have as an example of why systems are better. "... Losing 10 pounds is a goal (that most people can't maintain), whereas learning to eat right is a system that substitutes knowledge for willpower," he blogs.

Now this is included in my "must reads" list.

In his book, How to Fail at Almost Everything and Still Win Big: Kind of the Story of My Life, Scott sums up why systems top in the following "unlikely truths:"

  • Goals are for losers. Systems are for winners.
  • “Passion” is bull. What you need is personal energy.
  • A combination of mediocre skills can make you surprisingly valuable.
  • You can manage your odds in a way that makes you look lucky to others.

Meanwhile, James shares three reasons why we should focus on systems instead of goals:
  1. Goals reduce your current happiness. Thus, commit to a process, not a goal.
  2. Goals are strangely at odds with long-term progress. Instead, release the need for immediate results.
  3. Goals suggest that you can control things that you have no control over. So, build feedback loops.

With that, let me share with you what I am up to since the strike of New Year 2014:

My financial intention is to be free. So, I entered the PHP20.00 weekly challenge. So for the second week now, I have guaranteed PHP60.00 savings. I keep on going and I will have PHP27,560.00. It is manageable so far, so I hope many are up to this challenge. And that we will all end 2014 richer! Hooray!

My intention is to be well. So, I am sticking to my one fastfood meal a month. I already had my cheese burger, regular fries, and regular iced tea from Mc Donalds last Saturday. So that is it. Though, I also told myself (and my friends whom I have the annual visioning session) that I will minimize my sweets intake. This part I am struggling with --- Krispy Kreme, Country Style, our concessionaire's assortment of sweet bars and cake slices, my family's stash of sweets) --- these are already in my diet this New Year. MUST FIGHT THE TEMPTATION! I also try to walk more often lately (to burn more calories!!! Even if my heels are killing my feet!!!) and I keep drinking lots of water, sticking to one cup of coffee a day, and eating on regular intervals (no more to acute gastroenteritis or peptic acid disease ER episodes!)

My intention is to connect more to God and Jesus Christ so on my way to work, I read and listen to daily, spiritual inspirations. I read the daily prayer on Sacred Space, a well-known prayer website and Pray as you go, a daily prayer in MP3 format, for people traveling to and from work. I started with these last year but not on a daily basis. So far, my mornings are not complete without these. I am also continuing the New Testament reading assignments from the retreat I attended way back 2012! This I am so lagging (and still, I am not able to do this nightly --- cable TV and sleepiness took over) thus I have to complete this so I can have the reading assignments for the Old Testament.

My intention is to cultivate more healthy relationships so at the end of my day, I write a "thank you" note and put them in my "gratitude box." I write a thank you note to those people --- colleagues, family, friends, strangers --- who did something (whether indirectly) that brightened my day. "Thank you" also goes to even inanimate objects that put a smile on my face. And with that, I will forever remember them. And if I fill my box with all these "good vibes," I will have a wealth to draw from when loneliness from the past would creep in. I first read this from Elizabeth Gilbert, who propagated (or reinforced) the concept of "happiness jars." I also started with this last year but was never consistent. Now, I have a "thank you" note pad from Papemelroti with me and when I immediately acknowledge something or someone to be thankful for, I write it pronto.

I am a work in progress, especially implementing my systems. I mean, we all are.

But if the intention is good, and we are steadily seeing results from these systems, then that is reason to celebrate!

So let us keep going!!!

So, how are you doing with your 2014 intentions?

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

DESCOVRIR Be Free

My Bitsrips version of me

Hello, 2014!

So that was 2013. Not my banner year. And in recent talks with friends, the same it was for them.

But on a different perspective, I am still blessed than those who went through a lot, like the Bohol earthquake and supertyphoon Haiyan survivors.

2013 is so over. So as they say in Meet the Robinsons (which quote was from Walt Disney) let's "keep moving forward."

For 2014, my intention is to BE FREE.

Be free from debt (Finance)

Be in a job that I truly love and will love me back (Career)

Be well (Health)

Connect more to God and Jesus Christ (Spirituality)

Cultivate more healthy relationships (Relationships)


To achieve such goals in those life areas, I have systems in place which I neatly wrote --- all for my 2014 vision and I already started acting on them this Day 1 in 2014.

Yes, there is a difference between goals and systems and how we know the difference will matter to achieve our intentions.

And those pretty pink stationery sheet were I wrote all these are now a living document as I accomplish my intention.

Add to such were the lessons learned from years past:

Ask. I am always reminded by an Italian friend that I cannot do all things by myself. I have to ask. But ask without expecting. If turned down, keep moving forward.

Be discerning. I had opportunities the past year that at first glance, they were tantalizing. But over the years, I learned to become more discerning. Of what truly matters to me and what will benefit me in the long-term.

Be patient. I am told that I am impatient, both in a positive and a negative way. Last year, I have truly been impatient to get ahead. Such almost cost me connections and friendships and potential romantic interests. I have to always remember that not all are as gung-ho as I am.

Wait. I believe the fullness of time has arrived for me and yes, I am still gung-ho to get ahead. This year though, I should wait --- patiently. And while waiting, I am carefully searching for opportunities that will help me get to where I want.

So, for 2014, I declare:

I am allowing myself

To be more flexible

To be more forgiving of myself

To let go

And it is safe for me

To be more understanding of people and situations that are beyond my control.


So let us all have an exciting and a fabulous 2014 and beyond!